Yesterday, the gossips went viral better than I thought. I already begun to witness it when the other class students and seniors came and questioned her. The whole class looked at her as a victim and me as a one causing it. I scolded myself. I thought to myself that she isn't in the position to handle the situation. Neither do I. My mind begun to pull various thoughts like she hates me, my presence would make her cry, she don't wanna talk to me anymore or even to see me.I was afraid of her brother too. But he came and asked about the matter and gone silent. I felt awkward.The last bell rang. I started to like it better than yesterday. Me and my friends begun to pack. All of a Sudden, her friends rounded up from nowhere and begun to question me. The questions were strong like a bullet. I know I can't defend it with words. I stayed silent and left the class. I'm Searching for my cycle. It is not in my usual place. Some good persons have placed it over her ladybird. Without anger, I just smiled and thanked them.
I know the situation is worse. But I can't end my day without seeing her. I stayed somewhere hiding in the campus knowing that she will be late to home because of her singing class. Despite of the matters, I still want my day to end seeing my angel driving her ladybird. Another sleepless night. But this time it's different. Usually, I spend my nights thinking of her. But this time a petrify have taken a part.
The next day started with prayer, which I have taken it serious for the first time. I begun to count every bell that rang till the last one. I tried to rush towards the entrance hoping to leave the class. But my hope failed, when her friends surrounded me. At least yesterday they questioned me. Now they begun to threaten me for the truth. Their wordings are sharper than a blade. It involves something like bringing the matter to teachers. Since they are strict. It is only a matter of time, that our Hitler principal finds it out and calls my parents. I don't want them to feel ashamed because of my acts. I can't take it lightly because I have heard and seen such kind of things happening within the campus.The end remains the same giving TC and asking to leave them the school. With a fear in my heart, my throat begun to struggle to make a sound. Lacking options, I admitted by saying "yes, I loved her and but not now". My adding Not Now, I killed myself and left the place.
- To be continued...
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